So here it starts... my first blog as a submissive husband. If I was to be more specific then I would probably say submissive sissy husband but that is a bit of a mouthful. I serve my wife who I have been with for over 20 years and we are both in our 40's. I have been formally serving her as my domme for just over 9 months and although I think neither of us would have described the time before we made this change as unfulfilled we certainly both recognise that our relationship is much fuller as a result of this change.
The actual change started from me recognising that I was simply unable to understand or articulate my emotions and specifically my love for her in a way that she could recognise or appreciate. Basically I was a typical bloke who could not communicate and fortunately for me I had a wife who would not tolerate this and we agreed I would speak with a councillor. I did this for a number of months and it certainly helped me in techniques to talk but in the end it was a single event that really drove the fundamental change in the status of our relationship. The event is of no consequence to anyone else and not something I care to share but my wife's response and nurturing of me as I unburdened myself gave me a release I have never experienced. I realised that I adored and was devoted to this women and that I wanted to do more than simply be her husband and equal. I found a thrill in being in her service and dedicated to her and its a thrill that still stirs my sissy little cock when I think about it now.
In hindsight it feels like we actually talked very little about this fundamental change in our relationship. My wife has always been a very dominant character and her sex drive has always exceeded mine as well. She was also very loving and it was my failing to reciprocate that intimacy that was tremendously frustrating for her. In our new roles we have both found new things to develop and its an amazing experience going through that experience together. Both of us have been researching using online resources and blogs have certainly been a large part of that. It's my first real attempt at using blogs but we have both agreed that this will be good for me and especially in my development of expressing myself. I, by no means, believe that I have cured that deficiency and I hope that this will continue my education. I am also intrigued by the confessional nature of putting things down on paper and then archiving them to the internet for everyone to read. It seems that the interactions with other people who understand the situation are a key part of that so I hope that I able to write something that will inspire comment perhaps even from my own domme.
This post makes perfect since to me. My wife and I were also together for 10 years prior to her taking the reins. ( 7 years dating and 3 years of traditional marriage.) Our situation was very similar. We also would not describe the ten years as unfulfilled or a waste, as we experience many great moments, memories and times. But something was always missing for me, I always felt that I was not being who I was supposed to be. I can relate with you 100%. I also started a blog shortly after our FLR became official. I'm not sure how many people actually read or follow( although I wish this was a high number because I fell I post some good content) but for me simply writing it down and hitting the "Publish" button is a great way for me to organize my mind. I spent to many years keeping stuff inside, and aside from Miss Jessica, I still am unable to communicate with others regarding this. I love posting to my blog, and following other blogs such as yours. I always try to comment, because I fell it is another way to express my thoughts and I like to acknowledge what other people post as well. You have a great blog, and I look forward to much much more from you.
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