Cock please

A huge part of my submission and humiliation seems to revolve around cock and specifically big black cock. In the same way as my mistress can bring me to my submissive knees through her words but more often through her paddle and cane I can also be subdued by the presence of a big black cock.

It seems to manifest itself in a couple of ways. In a cuckold scenario where I am humiliated by this superior male taking my Mistress and goddess in front of me and enforcing that I have no role in that equation. My role will be limited to enhancing her orgasms through my mouth, ensuring her lover remains hard but ultimately to do what I am told whilst I stand there in my little sissy outfit.

It feels like we grow ever close to the prospect of fulfilling the cuckold fantasy but in the meantime my submission is fulfilled by the big strap on that my mistress wields. How I enjoy the sensation of having to gag on that big cock as she pushes my head down. I would never consider myself gay but I am intrigued with the prospect of being forced to my knees to service a big black bull prior to him turning his attentions to my mistress.

From a submissive perspective though I almost always achieve my sub space as I am pummelled by my mistress from behind.She has a routine that she has developed that starts with discipline through her paddle and whip on my bare bottom as I kneel on the bed dressed in my sluttiest outfit always including stockings and suspenders. As I reach a point of surrender through pain she subdues me with a medium sized butt plug and typically instructs me to give her first orgasm as she talks me through how she is going to continue to test and stretch my sissy ass throughout the night. She also takes great delight in mocking my cock as it always seems to shrink with the sensation of being filled.

After her orgasm comes the first cock. A big thick seven inch black dildo that I am now easily able to accommodate and always brings out the slut in me as I demand it harder. I know that I am provoking my mistress into taking me harder but deep down that is what I want. When her patience runs out she produces a much larger butt plug with a wide girth that she takes great pleasure in ramming into me and with it reminding me of what is coming. As a I lying on the bed she taps me with her cane forcing me to tighten around it and stretching me further. I can feel her dominace growing as she reaches for her 8inch cock. It's a beast of a dildo with a huge girth and she shows me no mercy as she fucks me with it. My slutty pleas are not sissy wimpers but she will not relent. The wonderful thing with this lifestyle is that it always grows and evolves and our last session did exactly that.

With my ass spread and well fucked she proceeded to stretch me further with her fingers. Painfully yanking on my balls as she did it. I could feel her desire to punish me grow as she started to push all her fingers in me and I felt her knuckles at my opening. I have never felt submission like it and although she never managed to fully fist me I know that will one day happen. I can't imagine her having greater control over me as she yanks my balls with her fist inside me. I will literally be her submissive puppet.

Impotence is not all bad

It's been a long time between postings and although I am sure I don't have a massive audience all on the edge of their seat waiting my next instalment I apologise regardless. Perhaps I should simply be apologising to my mistress since I know she reads these posts and I wait with bated breath for a comment off her to confirm I am indeed her bitch and confirm that to the internet world.

So a lot has gone on recently and the most recent development is that I am to be cuckolded. I have always described myself as an aspiring cuckold and always had an interest in porn where a wife is being taken by another man in front of her husband. In a rather traditional way I always prefer that man to be black. Beyond the fact that they are almost always sporting large impressive cocks I am sure the cross racial aspect adds to the humiliation aspect. None of these observations I am sure would be a revelation to the most amateur of psychologists. My mistress announced the fact that she would cuckold me with a price of ensuring that the house was worked on and all the jobs that she required done were completed. I am now awaiting one final jobs completion almost three months on and we have already started looking for prospective candidates.

We have both noticed that since that event that my cock is now far smaller and getting less hard. She describes me as slowly becoming more impotent and the fact that I am unable to service her like a real husband (and a real man) seems to make her more happy. For the record I have not ejaculated now for other 9 months. I can tell you to the day the last time I release which was before I went off on a trip and I was allowed to fill my mistresses pussy with my cum and was then forced to drink it from her pussy. It was over three months that I have not been inside my mistress. When she determined that I was to be cuckolded I requested that I not be allowed to be inside her. My cock can rarely last more than 30 secs inside her without getting excited and it also gets soft as I try to control it rendering it useless other than amusing my mistress with how pathetic I am. My mistress was more than happy to forego and the fact that her pussy will now in the future only be penetrated by real men is a backdrop that will reinforce my submissive role for ever. She is more than happy to inform me that her cock gave her little pleasure before we accepted the lifestyle change we are now very comfortable with. She is much happier it seems with my 'impotent' cock and of course she continues to be served by my mouth whenever she requires it. It's amazing that her orgasm count can sometimes be up to three or four a day all from my mouth when we would have been lucky to have got that to one a day if I had been using my cock. The denial of release and my desire to serve means that I am always ready to serve my mistress and I am very lucky that my mistress has a huge appetite for orgasms as it means I spend a large amount of my time buried between her legs. It is without doubt my favourite way to serve. My cock has become more of a amusement for her now and I remain eternally grateful that she still plays with it in her mouth although she has growing disdain for it if it hardens. Her view of it as a plaything and something to punish is very obvious and her slapping and torture of my cock and balls grows each day.This picture should give you some idea of the fun she enjoys inflicting on me.